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Douglas Seann Robb (born 2 January 1975, in Agoura Hills, California), commonly referred to simply as Doug Robb, is an American musician and lead singer of rock band Hoobastank. His father is of Scottish ancestry and his mother is of Japanese ancestry


AND I'M SO IN LOVE WITH HIM, IT'S RIDICULOUS.

John Cho (???, born June 16, 1972 in Seoul, South Korea) is a Korean American actor. He was raised in Los Angeles, California and graduated from University of California, Berkeley with a degree in English literature.
His claim to fame was an ancillary role in the 1999 comedy American Pie, in which he popularized the slang term "MILF." Advertising for the 2004's Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle cashed in on this angle, proclaiming that it starred "The Asian guy from American Pie".
He was one of the stars of the short-lived sitcom Off Centre on the WB television network. He was also a co-star of the now-defunct FOX comedy "Kitchen Confidential".
He is also the lead singer for a band called Left of zed.

and is also one of the hottest men alive. i would like to marry him someday

posted by ahoy there matey @ 9:04 PM

Keahiwai: Falling

I wanna tell you baby
You're the one that Im thinking of
But your heart is still with her
And I think she's the one that you love
I only want you happy
Even if it's not with meM
aybe one dayY
ou'll open up your eyes and you'll see

[Chorus]
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yeah I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you

From the first time
You laid your lips on mine
It feels like the smile on my face
Will last till the end of time
But Im not so sure
That you're the one that I should pursue
My mind tells me no
But my heart only says that it's you

Only time will tell
The mystery has yet to unfold
Who's gonna feel love's warmth
And the other left in the cold

Yet still I'm falling
Maybe im falling for you yeah
I think Im falling
Baby I'm falling for you
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
yeah I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you

posted by ahoy there matey @ 1:05 AM

the other night i pimped out my friends and got them men. i coulda gotten some that night. but i chose to focus on my friends. and chose to focus on one particular japanese boy which is probably out of my league.

there were a lot of easy targets that night, too. i coulda picked out a flavor of the week easily.

man. i'm such a shmuck.

but you know what? i'm proud of me. it's a step forward not being completely boy crazy.

but i can't stop thinking about dirtyBernard. he was diirrrty. but i liked it.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 11:43 PM

tryin to lose weight.

i've been bringing my lunch.

i've been cutting my caloric intake.

i've been dancing a lot.

been taking the stairs.

and still nothing.

ugh. last time i did this, i lost 5 pounds in a week.

damnit.

i'm a fat cow.

anyone up for some ice cream?

posted by ahoy there matey @ 6:08 PM

so thursday night, erik n i go to dave n busters. we meet up with zombie-matt, his gf keina, and matt's friend shane.

shane has this look. looks like an army boy. baldish. broad shoulders. not too tall, but not short. handsome. cute. he struck me.

but rodney was coming. so i was in no condition to look. rodney's ego is not too strong.

so the whole night, we're not really interacting. he's in his corner, i'm in mine. but we get to his house, and we're both pretty drunk. and i remember him telling me that his sister like filipinos, and i think he was hinting that he did too... but i wasnt sure cuz i was drunk.

we ended up making out. he's a great kisser. and he didn't try anything. which was awesome.

erik said we had to leave. so we try to be discreet about it. but we're holding hands. he's holding on really tight. and it just felt SOOOOO right. we said we'd call each other the next day.

and the next day.... i come to realize.... we didnt exchange phone numbers.

i dont want to seem desperate, since we were both drunk. i dont want to track down his number (even if it would be relatively easy). i want him to track my number down.

but it's been 5 days and still no call. =(

i'm sad. and i cant stop thinking about him.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 12:44 PM

i really would reflect on the past year, except, i havent done my homework. didn't read thru any of my archives from the past year... and even if i did... there weren't many posts anyway.

partly due to the fact that i was always in lala land with my the-boyfriend brian. he took up a lot of my time. most of it was spent trying to spend time with him. and what did we do? not much. watch movies, eat, and generally not do much. i think that's why the relationship failed. we just kinda lost touch with each other on a physical and mental level. he was more of a friend than a boyfriend, really. a really, really good friend... with benefits. yeah. the sex fizzled out a lot too. by A LOT.

the other reason i didn't post as much? no computer. slow internet connection. so i just didnt have the patience for it. to turn on, dial up, then have to wait for the stupid thing to actually connect and go the pages. then have to load shit, type shit, then post shit. it took a lot longer than was necessary, and the post ended up being something along the lines of "this stupid computer sucks." yeah. and who wants to hear that everyday?

but at least towards the end of the year, i started getting my shit straight. hopefully, we'll see a more improved mar as the year progresses. last year was more of a stalemate for me until the shit hit the fan.

look at me... i was stuck in a dead end job with a manager that i LOATHE, i was overweight (i'm not gonna say obese, or too fat, or any of that mess, cuz honestly, i was just slightly overweight. i'm trying to stop being the skinny girl that complains about being fat. even tho i'm not skinny.) my relationship was going to the shitter, and my degree wasn't being put to good use.

i can't believe i actually let a year pass by without trying to put my degree to use. that's a LOT of fucking man hours of work (and i'm not gonna say hard work, cuz it was pretty easy). so this year, i really need to get my ass in gear with finding a gig that's actually gonna work for me. let's put that degree to use, shall we? or figure out a way where it can get me places. at this point, i'll take anything that's non-sales. i'm done with retail. i'll finish up this last season until they start laying off people, and i'll be done with retail (let's hope. so cross your fingers for me)

you know what i've realized, tho? the breakup was a REALLY good thing for me. i've never really been a person that stays (really) single for long. not because i hate being single, trust me, i LOVE it! but because it's always been easy for me to find someone to commit to, and to get someone to commit to me. maybe it's because i want to keep my options open, or maybe it's because i'm still madly in love with brian (hahah. no i'm not. i'm lying). but i'm actually doing a very good job being picky this time around. maybe it's because the past 3 relationships have really spoiled me, and have pretty high standards to uphold. genaro had the member... after his, i couldn't go with a smallguy. and he had the faithfulness. and the puppiness. and thegoody-two-shoes-ness. and the stability. mark had the height. and the convenience. brian had the romance. the passion. he taught me how to be more adventurous. he pushed me. he treated me well. he was GREAT conversation.

my next man has to be all of that. the stability, the conversation, the passion, the romance, the height, the hotness, the motivation, the largerthanaveragedick, the faithfulness, the goodness in his heart, and has to treat me well. the perfect man for mar. and that's a hard thing to be. but you know what? i gotta be picky. i'm not getting any younger, and i would like to be able to play with my kids and not get completely winded.

you know what being single has done tho? i've become SUCH an alcoholic. i was already alkie as it was... but now it's just gotten way out of hand. the bottles of booze everywhere, and the drinking on weeknights. and my every thought is of when i'll get my next fix. geez. i need to stop it already! this is really bad for my liver!

but oh i love the good times! and i know you love the stories. and i love the feeling of it. the power, the buzz, and just being and idiot and not caring who cares. love it.

one thing i've really been proud of is how good of a friend i've become. being single has given me more time to spend with my sisters and my friends. actually getting to hang out with them and spending quality time and not having someone to check in with all the time. not having a little nagging voice in the back of my head. and not feeling guilty for looking at other guys. i've actually hung out with my lil sis a lot. i've hung out with my sisters. with friends from work. it's a great time! and i love that i'm strengthening these bonds. the one with erik too. we've gotten a lot closer this year. it's about time... we've known each other for 8 freakin years!

and YAY! i have a lil sis! i'm so proud of her! it was a long shot, especially since i already graduated... but i can't believe i FINALLY crossed a girl! after how many years! after so many DPs!!!! but she's my favorite. and i love her!

2005 seems like such a blur. there was snowboarding, san francisco, all the times in long beach. a lot of travel happened last year. and this year, hopefully more. for sure i have to go to vegas. to the bay area. numerous trips to LA. and hopefully even more.

and you know what? i've finally gotten rid of my winnie the pooh covers. i'm GROWING UP! i rearranged my room.... i've started making my bed. i'm cleaning my bathroom and room on a regular basis. i've actually started to try cooking. i've started buying my own groceries. i'm becoming less and less dependent on my parents. and i'm taking on a lot more responsibility for myself. and at my age, i know i'm a little late on it... but i figger for an asian girl... it's not so bad. i just gotta wait for mr. perfect to rescue me.

and i know he's out there. but if he's not... i think i can deal. i can be strong by myself. and the fun part is... i really believe that!

hooray for strength! hooray for courage. and hooray for singletons!

posted by ahoy there matey @ 9:21 AM