Saturday, July 03, 2004

hope dangles on a string
like slow-spinning redemption
winding in and winding out
the shine of it has caught my eye

and roped me in so mesmerizing and so
hypnotizing, i am captivated, i am

vindicated, i am selfish i am wrong
i am right, i swear i'm right
i swear i knew it all along
and i am flawed but i am cleaning up so well
i am seeing in me now the things
you swore you saw yourself so clear

like the diamond in your ring
cut to mirror your intention
oversized and overwhelmed
the shine of which has caught my eye

and rendered me so isolated, so
motivated, i am certain now that i am

vindicated, i am selfish i am wrong
i am right, i swear i'm right
i swear i knew it all along
and i am flawed but i am cleaning up so well
i am seeing in me now the things
you swore you saw yourself

so tired of the corners of your lips
part them and feel my fingertips
trace the moment for forever

defense is paper thin
just one touch and i'd be in
too deep now to ever swim
against the current

so let me slip away
so let me slip away
so let me slip away
so let me slip against the current

so let me slip away
so let me slip away
so let me slip away
so let me slip away

vindicated, i am selfish i am wrong
i am right, i swear i'm right
i swear i knew it all along
and i am flawed but i am cleaning up so well
i am seeing in me now the things
you swore you saw yourself

my hope dangles on a string
like slow spinning redemption

as much as i LOOOOOOOVE doug robb, his voice could never do what chris carraba's voice does for me. gotta love dashboard.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 11:14 PM

Thursday, July 01, 2004

sometimes i question myself. what i'm doing. what i believe in. and whether or not i should further question it.

i know i should. and i know that there's an extent where i shouldnt.

and my "whatever" attitude needs a makeover.

it's not that i dont care.

it's that i dont want to dwell on it.

and if that's wrong. then oh well. leave that for me to deal with or not to deal with, because it is MY LIFE.

you can pity me. you can look down on me. i dont mind much. because when you do, what kind of a person does that make you?

hey. i'm just tryin to live my life the way i know how and the way that i can. i know i'm a good person. and if i'm not in your eyes, then oh well. we just have different values.

because really, who's to say who's right and wrong? i know there are a lots of rules and guidelines and higher beings that could say so. but really, this life is mine. it was given to me. and i'm thankful for it. but i refuse to live my life as a slave to everything else because of the stigmas that fall before me.

no really. stop nit-picking. it's getting really irritating.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 6:55 PM

so i have an interview at american eagle tomorrow. which means i should probably get some rest. (cuz technically, it's in a few hours). anyhoo... in light of recent discoveries about my job DISsatisfaction and all. and in light of my recent coming to the conclusion that quitting from there was a HUGE mistake... i think this could be my second chance. now granted, that i shouldnt look too much into it, and i should probably be LESS optimistic, i cant help but think of the possibilities.

but then again. this is JUST an interview, and from there, we dont know where i'll end up. so i guess we'll see. but wish me luck. =) cuz hopefully, this will reopen doors that i thought would be permanently shut. *knock on wood*

ooh.. BTW, i have an imagestation account now. =) FINALLY!

posted by ahoy there matey @ 1:30 AM