extended VROOM

im talking to erik live from sf. its weird. i dunno. its not like we've ever actually kicked it kicked it, but now it just makes it so much harder. btw, im still kinda irked that he said he didnt call cuz "there was nothing to do." great. not like i was having a blast at the picnic.... but he woulda made it a tad more interesting. yeaowh well.

the other night i was driving in front of a big ass expedition with bright ass headlamps. and it was at a stoplight so we woulda been there for a while. but that's not the cool part. i covered my rearview mirror. and my left sidemirror. and the guy turned off his lamps. just so he wouldnt blind me. WOWEEEE! that was the coolest thing ever! see... a little consideration goes a long way.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 10:41 PM

ive been to all the kooky stores that would carry it. and still i find nothing. ive been dreading to search online for it because of my previous bad luck with online shopping. but it looks as if i have no choice.

where oh where can i find a blossom patch?!? not a powerpuff girls patch. just blossom. a big head shot of her that i can plaster on my big baby pink backpack for this scholastic year. and a few solo shots of her would be an awesome alternative to a giant headshot. but alas... i have failed my cartoon persona in my mission to portray her on my backside.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 12:23 AM

have you seen my giiiiirl. she's the one with the cuuuurly hair. she was sitting just right over theeere. now she's nowhere to be found. i think she's mad at me. i dont know whyyyy. i think its cuz i made her cryy. when i told her i was down. she only likes me when im hiiiiiigghhhhh. she's always tryin to get me stoned. she wants to see me in the skyy. dont think she's happy there alone. she's got me on my knees. beggin baby baby please. dont hurt me noooooo. dont hurt me soooooo.

that song is so damn catchy i cant get it out of my head:::::

here's a try tho.

when you're on a holiday. you cant find the words to say. all the things that come to you. and i wanna feel it too. on an island in the sun. we'll be playin n havin fun. and it makes me feel so fine i cant control my brain. when you're on a golden sea. lalallalala leeee. just a place to call your own. as we drift into the zone. on an island in the sun. we'll be playin n havin fun. and it makes me feel so fine i cant control my brain. we'll run away together. we'll spend some time forever. we'll never feel bad anymooooooore. hip hip.

nope. that didnt work.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 12:48 AM

my brother called me on saturday. turns out he finally met jasmin. after how many freakin years of not knowing she existed. and he finally meets her at a car show. haha. thats pretty funny. its cool how they finally met in person::::

the way kuya tells me, he was walking around scoping cars. then he sees a crowd of guys hovering over some girl. ofcourse, being a guy, he got curious. so he walked over...

Kuya:: OH MY GOD! COUSIN! hey Jasmin, its me Sherwin. Maria's brother.
Jasmin:: oh my god! i finally get to meet you! how come we've never met in person? you guys only live like 2 hours away.
Kuya:: oh i know. but my mom is kinda strict on us. hey so you know about us?
Jasmin:: yeah. oh man. when i was in seattle, someone actually came up to me and said "Hey, arent you maria's cousin?"
Kuya:: what? no way.
Jasmin:: hey can you do me a favor and not tell your dad that you saw me here? my dad doesnt know i travel around and your dad might tell him.

the rest is kinda history. and i paraphrased. but you get the point. i still have yet to meet her in person. i keep hearing stories.. but i dunno. its kinda weird having a model in the family. or so close anyways. and to think that we never knew she existed until she was on the cover of a car magazine. geez. my dad never even bothered to tell us that we had other cousins in southern california.

but having her in the family makes me feel all inferior. like im the ugly one in the family. yikes. the FAT ugly one in the family. GREAT. what an ego boost.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 10:04 PM

evan called at midnight last night. i never called back. he didnt either. deb called last night. didnt call back. she called again this afternoon. i declined. damn. i whine and moan about not having friends, and i dont pick up their phone calls when they actually put forth the effort to call. damnit. im so retarded.

at least ive been talking to kenny and krystle. hopefully kenny has the same break hour as i do during t/th and we can chills. and evans not gonna go to NY so that means more chill time with him. as for deb, i dunno. i think she's a lost cause. ever since she turned blonde she's been... welll ... blonde. the bleach kinda almost got to her head. and the bond between us isnt as strong as before. eh. there i go with the excuses again. ANYHOO... i think imma call krys now.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 9:50 PM

ive been playing with pooh bear's new phone all night long. i just got him a brand new nokia 3390. fresh outta the box. only hurt the pocket $107 this time around. not as bad as my 8290. but his phone is funner. mine is just cuter and more efficient than his. but his is fun. and i can take it apart in 5 seconds flat.

i called krystle today. she never answered. the jean experts are supposed to go out tomorrow. but i only have til 8. thats not gonna do me any good. and i feel kinda lousy for not calling back deb. she'll get over it. i just feel bad that the jean experts arent gonna get to chills tomorrow. *sniff sniff* its been so long since we have. and evan owes me a night out. damnit. haha. booooo. why arent they callliiiiinnnnnnngggggg????????????

have to chills wif erik and emilio soon. hope so. erik is going to live up in n.cali wif his bro. that means any chance of us chillins is goin down the potty. cant believe its been like 3 years since we first met and we STILL havent had a conversation in person yet. sheesh. talk about procrastinating!

posted by ahoy there matey @ 1:05 AM

i know i really outta compose all of my thoughts on one blog. but kill me. im unable to. i guess this one is more personal than the oh so public version. last night i found out that 64% of my viewers have linked from google. apparently they searched for "fast and the furious green eclipse" and hit my page. it was probably the little excerpt i had about how HOLLYWOOD the movie is. booo. and how very FAKE and FALSE everything in that movie was. booo. i think i crushed some little boy's heart. OOPS!

BUT ANYWAYS... im trying to be a good friend. but for some reason i just cant do it. maybe its because im too attached to the pooh bear. or too afraid because of my experiences in the past. damn if you had "friends" like mine, you'd be paranoid too. cuz these new friends of mine (i.e. ae) are too good to be true. they're the friends that ive always wanted but never had a chance to meet. because we're all from such different backgrounds. and different parts of san diego. el cajon, paradise hills, el centro, carlsbad, and bay area. =T i want to be the giddy little friend that we usually are, but my past is really holding me back from all of that. i should really make a call. i should really stop flaking. and i should really stop relying on work to keep us all together. yargh. here i go... jumping into the ravine (yellow submarine, yellow submarine).

i think jerry summed it up best when he said (and im paraphrasing here) "it was always (me and genaro). so now that (he's) gone, i dont have anyone else to turn to. no real friends ... not immediately." something like that. but it was just THAT. that im so comfortable with the way things are right now that i dont think that i really have my own identity. i have my HALF. but not my whole. cuz pooh is my other half. damn. relationships are hard. as blissful as they may be... its one swift kick in the ass the moment that you're not happy together. cuz everything and everyone else is gone. you excluded yourselves and now theres no one else in that exclusive ring to comfort you or be with.

nm. blabbing again.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 6:30 PM

yargh. damnit i forgot what type of lights i use in my car. noooooooo!

posted by ahoy there matey @ 1:50 AM

at this moment, jerry and i are talking about cars and people in high school. i got him to momentarily stop being sad and lonely. thats an achievement. he's a friend. cant let him be like that.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 1:02 AM

tonight, i was bored. so i looked who was online. to whom i was not going to talk to but look at their profiles. hmm.. no one really. just some people from high school. but if i IM them, then we'll start catching up, and i have work at 8 tomorrow morning. i think ill just look at their profiles. damn. checked out a few links. most of which were dumb. then i came across jerry's. damn. jerry and lhea broke up. 3 years and 3 months. damn they were together forever. they were THE couple for my class. well, THE couple in my eyes. cuz they were together my whole freakin high school life. it was so cool how jerry got all excited about her when they first got together. jade and i used to make fun of him in Mac's class cuz we thought they looked alike. that was cool. and since then, they were this inseperable force. its just weird to know that they're no longer together. and i know how he feels. sort of. cuz i know how genaro felt last summer. it sucks. and at the same time i know how lhea feels. sort of. and i wish that i could tell jerry how lhea feels. but what if im wrong? i wish i could just put those two back together. even if they had problems, they always got through it. they were the couple that i kinda looked up to. cuz no matter what, they always remembered how much they love each other. no matter how angry or stupid the other one was acting.

and now.... i dont know. i really shouldnt be getting like this over someone else's break up. but i really cant help it. when you know how someone is feeling, its hard not to feel the same way. especially if you know them. especially if you've known them forever. damn. i want to talk to him. i really should. but i dont know.

ughhhhhh! okay. im going to. damnit. sorry if im late Ivett. but this is important.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 10:29 PM

mission federal credit union
mobil
capital one
associates national bank
bank of america
get smart visa
abercrombie & fitch
express

did i miss a card? too much plastic is invading my wallet. this past thursday night, i took all of my credit cards (except my mobil card, a&f, and mfcu) and put them in a safe place in my room where i cant get to them. so the only way i can buy anything is with my checking account, getting gas, or an emergency little something at a&f. yargh. shopaholics cant deal with stuff like this. YIKES! and with my overloaded credit, i seriously doubt that i will qualify for anything else.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 12:30 AM

freakin blogger. it always finds some way to confuse and bewilder me. always makes me fix stuff. im a point and click girl when it comes to this thang damnit.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 11:50 PM

the other night my mom had a heart problem and her blood pressure was really high. she's had a history of high blood pressure. and she's been stressed out a lot lately. the doctor said it was nothing serious. but the diagnosis was in the middle of the night. as much as i want to believe him, i dont. and im so scared that im gonna lose my mom. i love my mom so much. she doesnt deserve to suffer like this.

today, when i came home from work, she was yelling at the kids. then she started yelling at me. as much as i wanted to fight back, i was too scared that she would have the same heart problem. i wish she would just stay home from work tonight and rest a while. she needs to rest. she cant go on like this. she needs to stop working so much. but what can she do? nothing i guess. and theres really nothing that i can do for her. the one person that can actually make a difference doesnt care enough to. damnit pa.

i know i shouldnt be this worried. and that this is just as bad for my health as it is for hers. but i cant help it. its my mom. i cant stand to just watch her slowly kill herself. and for what? for her ungrateful little kids that dont even realize what's happening.

it's that time in my life when i know im gonna start losing people in my life. no one is gonna live forever. and i wish that i never live to see any of my loved ones die. but i dont want them to go through my death either. its a lose lose situation. i just dont know which lose i want to be.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 11:45 PM

i wonder why abercrombie is always a big mess. they have a million and one employees on the salesfloor, most of which are not helping customers. so why isnt the store nice and organized? arent they supposed to uphold some kind of image? or is their image that they are a bunch of pretty people too good to be straightening their product for easy shopping? i mean at AE, we stress that everything is size stickered, sized, folded to a crisp, stacked, and organized for our customers. it just makes it a whole lot easier to shop. we also assist each and every customer so that they can get everything that they want. geez. i guess its that whole different shopping experience thing. each retailer has their own techniques. i guess abercrombie is going for the "you cant be me, but you can dress like me" thang. the whole psychology with the popular people.. that even though they're a bunch of worthless sacks of shit, they're still stylish and popular... and we want to be just like them.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 10:57 PM