Tuesday, August 23, 2005

ever since that HEARTBREAKING post... i've seen quite a few changes in one's behavior. (and if you dont know what i'm talking about... it's probably better off that you dont. because it involves several different posts, and those of which are not entirely of mine)

it used to be so undercover. everything was censored. it probably wasn't for my own good. it was probably just to keep it more under raps because of a certain insecurity. the same insecurity that kept things more level back in the day.

and after a certain post, in which a truth was told, the censors seem to have been lifted. now, things seem to be more "rub it in your face" than just trying to keep things under raps. because before, i suspect that it was to protect someone (probably not me, most likely the opposite) from any kind of scrutiny on my part.

can i just tell you? big mistake.

because now i can make the jokes. the lift counteracted the purpose, and i can use it to my own advantage. LET THE SCRUTINY BEGIN!!!!

bitter? a little bit. not so much so because i got the better end of the stick. but it does seem to leave a certain aftertaste that's not to my liking.

kind of like drinking beer. i hate it... but it just feels good up until the gas.

speaking of gas... there seems to be a lot going on in those uncensoreds! haha... on both parts. or maybe it's just that one is full of gas and the other is full of SHIT. something along those lines.

in any case... i take back nothing. because a truth was told, and if it didnt go down as they liked, then so be it.

and yes... I LIED in the past because of simple truth #1. it wasnt a lie at the time. so it doesnt count.

(((and if you're still confused about this post, please dont hesitate to call me. you have my number)))

posted by ahoy there matey @ 10:52 PM