extended VROOM

my big bro just pointed something out to me. and dont worry big bro... it was off of a tangent.

i've only been able to make it work with guys that are larger than average.

is it because of the sex? or is it purely coincidental?

cuz if that's the case... then any small guys need not apply.

actually....

wait.

nm.

that's just wrong.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 10:22 PM

erik and jeanelle are the only ones that have ever understood my humor. laughed at the same stupid shit. actually understood the stupidest, corniest, jokes i've ever made, and actually stayed on the same wavelength. brian was close, but was never really there. and that's why i take any chance to hang out with either or. cuz hanging out with erik or jeanelle makes me feel normal again. they understand the stupid jokes. the irrelevant babble. the random sayings. everything else is kinda wasted on everyone else. to draw a blank and look at me like some kind of psychotic, random freak. great. THANKS!

with erik, it's just FUNNY. we could be doing anything, and the randomest things will happen. and the jokes and the banter that go back and forth is always entertaining. because we're both so lame that it's HILARIOUS.

hilarious, i tell yah.

so. of the 5 groomsmen from Manny&Ha's wedding... i've seen Erik, Richard, Ron, and Randy (but he didnt see me). so if i see manny.. that makes ALL 5! damn. so meaning.. i dont know. they think i'm alkie. whatever. so is erik. whatever. i forgot to ask alex who his friend was at the wedding that erik found me with. oh well.. i dont care that much.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 9:38 PM

i catch myself thinking of the possibilities. of what can happen if i dont wait out the three years. or whats in his head right now. i know he's thinking the same thing of me. comfortable. convenient. easy. but its good that we're both keeping distances. i just dont know how to tell him that i've been dating

how do you tell someone that? someone so close to you. that has chosen not to do. my lil sis gave me a short lecture about how the 3 years should mean more. it DID! it meant a lot. but i'm not the kind of person to sit around and wallow. not the kind of person that waits for things to happen in her love life. i need attention, damnit. if not from one person, then multiple.

dreams have been strange lately. a proposal. china in my bed. a lot of china. a lot of random too. and its all been weird.

btw, china hasnt picked up his phone. he called once when he came back. then i called twice. he didnt answer. so its his turn to call. =T the sad part is that it sucks cuz i miss him so much. but i dont wanna seem desperate. and im not. i just miss him, is all.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 1:53 PM

wow. look what i found.....


October 6, 2000

if you told me you love me
how would i react
to a declaration of feelings
completely alien in my system
still harmoniously coexisting with all of
my bodily functions
left in a state of confused bliss
my head in the clouds
heart submerged in warmth
content with its location in
a fluffy pink world
full of yellow-faced emotions
eyes dilated stomach churning
all inhibitions hidden deep within the silver lining.
then it rains
the silver lining is gone
and nothing is left but raw emotion
silently screaming for a response
beckoning to fit comfortably
in this happy little world
with the population of two.
two to live in private
contentment together
outside influences feelings distractions
non-existent as long as this duo
remains trapped with this
limbic system product
which they have created
to cage each other in.
if you love me then do not
box it in words so that it can be presented
to me with an underlying Hallmark
embedded message
tainting the emotion
purity comes only with actions.
and with only these non-verbal aspects
can i ever believe anything to be true.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 7:49 PM

Why you can't spell.

THIS SHOULD RATTLE YOUR BRAINS A LITTLE

If you ever feel stupid, then just read on. If you've learned to speak fluent English, you must be a genius! This little treatise on the lovely language we share is only for the brave. Pursue at your leisure, English lovers.

Reasons why the English language is so hard to learn:
1) The bandage was wound around the wound.
2) The farm was used to produce produce.
3) The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuse.
4) We must polish the Polish furniture.
5) He could lead if he would get the lead out.
6) The soldier decided to desert his dessert in the desert..
7) Since there is no time like the present, he thought it was time to present the present.
8) A bass was painted on the head of the bass drum.
9) When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.
10) I did not object to the object.
11) The insurance was invalid for the invalid.
12) There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row.
13) They were too close to the door to close it.
14) The buck does funny things when the does are present.
15) A seamstress and a sewer fell down into a sewer line.
16) To help with planting, the farmer taught his sow to sow.
17) The wind was too strong to wind the sail
18) After a number of injections my jaw got number.
19) Upon seeing the tear in the painting I shed a tear.
20) I had to subject the subject to a series of tests.
21) How can I intimate this to my most intimate friend?

There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple.

English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France (Surprise!).

Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat.

Quicksand works slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea or is it a pig. And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham?

If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend. If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it? Is it an odd, or an end?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell? How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out, and in which, an alarm goes off by going on.

nglish was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race, which, of course, is not a race at all. That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible.

P.S. - Why doesn't "Buick" rhyme with "quick"?

posted by ahoy there matey @ 6:05 PM

there are times in your life when you just step back and watch what happens.

whenever i do... i wonder where my ambitions went. i wonder what happened to all of my relationships with friends, coworkers, and lovers. i wonder when i became the person i am now.

i realize that it's a culmination of everything that i've done, and of all the people that i've met. but i know that deep down, it's all a part of me that's just been waiting to come out.

i'm still trying to decide whether i really like it or not. i'm tired of being in the middle. yes. middle child syndrome. i'm happy with the person that i've become. i'm happy with the experiences that i've had. i'm happy with the people that i've met.

but i'm very sad with where i've taken myself. 10 years ago, if you would have told me how my life would be... i really would have followed through with the suicide attempt.

not to say that i'm miserable. just trying to make the point that i'm disappointed in myself. i took on bad habits that a long time ago, i told myself i would never take up (weed, alcohol, tobacco). i've graduated with no ambition to move on. i didnt graduate suma cum laude. didnt even graduate with honors. i'm not married, no kids (which i'm very happy about, for now).

reflection can be pretty hard at times. but at least it gives you a chance to really see where you are. one more step back and maybe i can figure out a wa to fix what i've fucked up on.

so someone please be there behind me to catch me when i trip on my own two feet.

it's hard to be single. i love it. i hate it. i love it. i hate it. i love it. but i'm just lonely.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 11:20 PM

singleness? man. i love it. but sometimes.... i'm still on the fence.

super M A R 52: but it's hard to get a foot in
SagaSupra: yeah
SagaSupra: just gotta whore yourself out
SagaSupra: eventually some one will have the perfect fit for ya
super M A R 52: i hope so
super M A R 52: same to you
super M A R 52: lets go be WHORES!
SagaSupra: hehehe
SagaSupra: i already am girl!
SagaSupra: lol
super M A R 52: ooh. nice to know
super M A R 52: hahhaha
SagaSupra:hahaha
SagaSupra: watcha got planned tonite?
super M A R 52: btw, got any hot, single friends?
SagaSupra: i was gonna ask you the same thing!
super M A R 52: no plans. got work at 730 tomorrow morning
super M A R 52: hahhahhahah. good job!
super M A R 52: i got sorority sisters. but the single ones are kinda young
SagaSupra: help a buddy out here
SagaSupra: yeah, i prefer 21+
super M A R 52: yeah. got some hot ones. but not single
super M A R 52: sorry buddy
SagaSupra: haha, all good
SagaSupra: they will be single evnetually
SagaSupra: hahahah
super M A R 52: anything for me? preferably at least as tall as you or taller
super M A R 52: yeah that's true
SagaSupra: hmmm....you already know all my homies.
SagaSupra: and the ones you dont know live in LA
super M A R 52: boo
SagaSupra: and are all car show people
super M A R 52: =P
SagaSupra: like them fools that run HIN
super M A R 52: no hot singles?
SagaSupra: hmm....dunno bout hot HOT
SagaSupra: hahaha
SagaSupra:im trying to think of the guys who are ladies mens
super M A R 52: dude at this point i'll take mild
SagaSupra: ditto
SagaSupra: 7+ is good for me
SagaSupra: i dont think i can handle a super hot girl
SagaSupra: cause the super hot ones i know arent really down to earth and normal
SagaSupra: they are all party animals
SagaSupra: <- too old to be partying every weekend now
super M A R 52: haha
SagaSupra: go thru my myspace
SagaSupra: you can select
SagaSupra: theres a ton of guys under my friends

and with that... came a host of other shit. let's just say that i wish i wasnt from san diego. cuz otherwise i'd be allll up on these guys nuts. too bad i know most of them. =( poo.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 9:51 PM

myspace is the DEVIL!!!!

super M A R 52: grrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
super M A R 52: this is why myspace is the DEVIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Howslife14: ooooh
Howslife14 thought you wasted money on alexander too for a lil bit
Howslife14: did you join the masses?
super M A R 52: i was talking to my alkie free friend and he told me to browse thru his myspace for a potential fling
Howslife14: at least dashboard's on there
Howslife14: oh
Howslife14: well, it's not facebook
super M A R 52: totally forgetting that he knew my ex from like waaaaay back
super M A R 52: the 4year relationship that is still with some FAT COW OF A BITCH that he always cheats on and he used to tell me about and used to call me crying trying to figure out how to break up with her cuz she's a fucking CLINGY FAT HAG
super M A R 52: UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
super M A R 52: i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Howslife14: I can only imagine
super M A R 52: and she posted a few comments on his page. one of which has a pic of his bike in front of his house and i saw my BABY JESSE (my integra, my baby, my child!) under a BLANKET in the garage!
super M A R 52: UGHHHHHH!!!!! i want my fucking CAR back!
super M A R 52: and i want that bitch to DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE!!!!!!!
super M A R 52: ((((WHOA))))
super M A R 52: sorry. that was scary. i just hate her THAT much
Howslife14: feel a bit better?
super M A R 52: yes. thank you
Howslife14:it's okay, I'm used to people venting at/to me
super M A R 52: sorry. that came out of nowhere
super M A R 52: she's a horrible person. that needs to die a thousand tortured deaths
super M A R 52: and you know me... i try to at least get to know people before i pass judgment. i TRIED to be nice to her and get to know her... but the more i learned about her, from her, she ended up being uglier and uglier.
super M A R 52: and she was already physically ugly
Howslife14: eesh
Howslife14: those're the worst
Howslife14: yea, I drop people like that as soon as I sense 'em
super M A R 52: i hate her because she took the one person that i really loved at the time and ripped him away because of her insecurities and jealousy
super M A R 52: i LOVE his family. and he was such a good friend. and she didnt ALLOW him to see or talk to me
super M A R 52: a few months after we broke up, i ran into his mom and cousin and they gushed about how they missed me, and that they didnt like her
super M A R 52: =( cry cry, tear tear
Howslife14: karma'll get the best of her eventually
super M A R 52: i hope so
super M A R 52: i just hate that she had to ruin a great friendship. and it's because of that that i dont get to see some of my friends
super M A R 52: at least brian's friends are cool enough that they'd still hang out regardless of who he's with
Howslife14: I feel ya on that one
super M A R 52: but genaro's friends were so loyal to him. that it's taken me YEARS to finally be able to hang out with "our" old friends....
super M A R 52: most of whom he never would have met/hung out with without me
super M A R 52: holy crap i just found one of my kuyas. =P from like 8 years ago that i havent talked to for like 5 years
super M A R 52: and he's one of my homie
Howslife14: so are you officially on myspace yet?
super M A R 52: 's friends. that's so RANDOM. cuz they've never been into the same things or live near each other or would know the same people
super M A R 52: wtf? this is a TRIP
super M A R 52: i should IM him. he still signs on and he's still on my buddy list
super M A R 52: no. not on myspace. I REFUSE!!!!
Howslife14: well, gotta hold on to your convictions...
super M A R 52:i quit. no more clicking
super M A R 52: i found ONE of his friends interesting. =( but he's in torrance and 29. but single and has a job with HKS!

myspace is the devil. and it brought out the bitch in me. just with a few simple clicks. that's terrible.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 9:28 PM

the sisters and i were talking about it the other night. about sex, in general. and sex in detail. and one thing came up controversial....

when does it not count? and when does it count?

some say any form of penetration counts as sex. some say nay, it only counts if the guy ejaculates.

i'm with the latter. because it only counts as enjoyable sex when there is enough time for the man to ejac. or at least, enjoyable for one party. but it counts enough because the female in question involved in the act allows for enough time and enough pleasure for the man to cum.

sex does not count with penetration alone. why? because you can stuff a limp dick in your thang and still have it count as penetration. you can tease a guy with just tipping (which still counts as penetration) and not have it count as sex. just because it is a sexual act, it does not count as SEX.

and because of this, many women are troubled with their "number" because some of their partners were bad lays, but still did cum. some partners were limp dicks, which they tried to stuff inside. some of their partners went for a couple of hits and passed out. some of their partners were just teased but never got to go all the way. because honestly... to go all the way means to GO ALL THE WAY. and that's that.

so what's mar's lucky number now?
2 one nights. 2 long terms. 2 rebounds. you can take some wild guesses, but i bet you'll only get three correct.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 3:45 PM