Sunday, August 29, 2004

haha! alicia keys cant say "ethnicities"

eth*ni*ci*ties

posted by ahoy there matey @ 10:42 PM

i shake it. i hate it because i cant. i'm usually stronger than this. its easy to look. its easy to get to know someone and not let any feelings get involved. but what do you do when feelings get involved before the whole process?

and i may be overthinking this. i should really just call the guy and see what happens. but i shouldnt because i'm scared. because in THIS situation... i know i wont be able to control what happens.

and this one requires a sacrifice that i'm not ready to give up.

John... if you can hear me.... just know that if it was meant to be... it will happen. and if not... then just know that you moved me.

..... UPDATE.....
i called the one person that i thought could really put things into perspective. i called james. and he told me what i should do. he said "NO maria. dont do it. you're just asking for trouble." and he's right. sadly. he's right.

posted by ahoy there matey @ 9:54 PM